My friend died last week. He was only 25 years old but had such a great impact on a lot of people's lives. His death was extremely unexpected and he didn't appear to have or complained of any ailments. But I called it: it was an aneurysm. He had polycystic kidney disease and the aneurysm caused him to bleed out through his brain. He just went to sleep, they said.
He always had a great smile on his face every time I see him. Even now, I hear his voice and the distinct way he would say my name when he says hello to me. It's been a week but I still can't believe it. It will be especially hard tomorrow when we go out and he won't be there.
After his death, I started noticing death everywhere. How do you deal with death? My favorite person was in the Army for 4 years with one tour in Iraq and death was constantly on my face but it never happened. I prayed extremely hard. After my friend's death, I started thinking about death and how easily the people closest to my life could be taken away from me. It's hard knowing that it's actually going to happen at some point of my life.
What do you do then? How do you go on not being able to see them again? Even the simplest thing such us watching TV and sitting on the couch won't ever be the same. Nothing would be the same.
I started reading "The Book of Lost Things" by John Connolly today and it deals a lot with death. It just hit me so hard that I felt the need to write something.
So after my friend died, I made it a point to be more in tune with people in my life. Always say I love you and let them know how much I appreciate having them in my life. Life is short after all.
Rest in peace, my friend.
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